Next Chance

When a person die, do you still have the second chance?

No, you will never have it.

Why should wait for the next chance to come?

Why not just grab what you have right now??

I am reminiscing the days with my only brother. He left me 18 months ago. It is the greatest shock of my life.

I could only spend time with him during my holidays at home. I remember we were holding hands walking at home. He knew was his sister who walked with him, he was smiling happily. He was so excited and we kept walking together. He couldn't speak to me, but I can understand his thoughts through his body languages and emotions.

Without any omen, he is gone... gone forever...

I can no longer hold his hand, hear his laugh nor see him in face...

Next chance? I will never have it anymore...

5 months later, my Uncle Yap had left us during the Chinese New Year.

The first day of CNY, instead of visiting him at home, we went to the hospital. Within a few days, from normal ward, he was transferred to ICU and to eternity.

He was gone... I wasn't ready for that... It was my first time to see my cousins shedding tears. The pain of losing their father.. I can feel it deep inside my heart core...

I recalled my memory with him. I remembered even I had a short-term work, when I brought my uncle, aunt and their grandchildren for meal, he insisted to pay. After that, my uncle and aunt did not have enough money to buy a vase. I helped them to pay first. I didn't ask for the money back but my uncle still returned it to me.. I really want to treat them a meal.. I worked, I have the money to treat you, it is just a way for me to respect you... pls.. give me the chance to pay for the bill... no... I never have the chance again...

When I was studying in Kota Bharu, my uncle always called and asked when I will be back? He always said I come back must visit them at home. Every time I also asked my parents along but they were busy some times... So, I went to visit them myself. There was once.. I was back home for only one week and was rushing for assignments. I broke the promise.. I did not visit my uncle.. I am really regret... I do not have the chance to see him again...

My cousin said... she back from UK and accompanied uncle for one year was a sign of his departure... He had seen her daughter finally back to his side... he saw me.. those who were not around him...

But... did I notice this sign? I just felt regret of missing the chance to visit him... missing the chance to treat him a meal...because of these chances I missed, it make a regret for the rest of my life....

Next chance? You will never foresee it, but you can grab the chance you have now. Don't ever miss it. The chance flies with time...